I was remiss in meditation practice the last few days due to food poisoning. I chickened out of experiencing the intimate reality of what my body was going through. I never meditate when I’m on pain medication or have been drinking. Seems antithetical to sharpening one’s mind when under the influence. Meditating while under the influence of salmonella seemed equally wrong.
Noticing tonight how food eaten affects meditation. Some BBQ pork ribs for dinner made me feel very heavy and tight in the abdomen, making it difficult to sit straight without a little aching pain in the back. Goenkaji says heavy or greasy food brings about these qualities of the earth element when meditating. Similarly fire could be equated to spicy food or anger. Air with fear or perhaps ease of breath or farting. These things mostly seem distracting from the practice however. Why would nature want to interfere with my efforts to pursue Dhamma? Perhaps it’s just my over-indulging in these qualities of nature beyond what I’m capable of taking on and remaining balanced that causes problems. Water is usually a symbol for ease and flow, and perhaps therefore influences a smooth and easy meditation. Certainly having to urinate or feeling overly emotional during meditation would be a distraction. Accepting the natural distractions of the mind by outside influences on nature and remaining focused is part of the challenge and what leads to improvement on the path.
It also occurred to me how much the luminogram to print artwork I do is not just representational of the elements, it is comprised of them (as are all of us, and all the universe). Chemicals and elements such as silver and bromide are mined from earth. They are mixed with water to allow them to be diluted and flow easier. Light from fire in my lamp burns the silver halide turning it dark, and air produces bubbles and pressure to deliver the chemicals to the film in various ways. Some of my early luminogram work can be seen by clicking here! I’m looking forward to doing a show in August in Boulder. Good excuse to work on new images that have been waiting patiently for my attention.